Lack.

The idea of never being good enough.

Yet again.

Hoping you would show the slightest bit of concern. But, no.

Some nights

Some nights I lay in bed and entertain the very idea of you leaving me. It gets hard to breathe.

What if.

I reckon what scares one out of one's wits is not that potential monster under his bed waiting to devour him. Nor the tacky ghost stories told by the bonfire during a cool night of a summer camp. What scares one out of his wits is really the what if's going on in his head. The idea of a kind of reality that is every bit possible. The kind that has no loop holes or debate against it. The idea of knowing something is able to happen without a doubt. What if I do not do well for the national exams? What if the police actually finds him? What if that very one person you loved with all your heart leaves? What if you never see someone important again? What if?

Lost.

I wanted someone to listen. That was all I was asking for. I was not asking for a Prada or Gucci. I just wanted you to stay and listened to me vent my frustrations. Was that too much to ask for? I give up. I am so exhausted, and you don't know how it feels. You don't care. What more can I say, baby? I love you, but there are times where I need someone to be there to just solely stay with me for a single solid reason. I want to rant without getting lectured. Yes, I get immature. But I am not a kid. I know what I am doing.
What am I suppose to do? Tell me. Because I feel so lost.

Me...

I'm acting on impulse. I always do. Crap. But i'm sticking to this. I will.

I won't let history repeat itself.

Everyday I tell myself, when I finally have a family of my own, it will be nothing like this one. Abso-fucking-lutely not like the hell I am living in. 

My favorite fairy tale.

Once upon a time, fuck you, the end.

Drop a heart, break a name.

Got counselling session for my semi-suicidal state.. lol

Should I or should I not go watch "The devil inside"? I scared le LOL

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Moonshine & Molly.

When you miss me just look up to the night sky and remember, I ' m like a star, sometimes you can't see me, but I'm always there.

Joe Brooks,

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Y U NO BE MY SUPERMAN?

Seriously, this kind of people also have?! Your mum took care of you for 28 years, AT LEAST. Then after marriage, your parents ehh, your PARENTS... don't want uh?! K can, u went china to work, acceptable cause its to support YOUR family. But do you realise u go how long not? 10+ years ehh. 10 + eh! Now my grandfather, YOUR father is going to pass away soon. My grandmother, YOUR mother, sends u a letter, telling you to come back ASAP but all you can do is send her back this letter.. no, not even a letter, a SHORT NOTE. Saying "MRS GAN , - $2000- , from tarence & kim"
SERIOUSLY, WHAT IS THIS SHIT ?!

I finally made friends. Or better yet, there are actually people in my class who wants to make friends with me. Hahah.

Cause we belong together like popcorns & movies , raw fish & sushi .Its all about L . O . V . E .

Stop asking people to stop being insercure .. Its not as if you don't feel insercure , right ? Everybody has their reason for being insercure . Be it their ex , parents , peer pressure , stress that causes it . Theres nothing wrong with being insercure , there only something wrong with making someone feel insercure .

Wow , its already the 8th day of 2012 . Shockingly , i am not making any frewns .. sad right ? Everyday like sian sian one .. Somemore , all the girls in my class like ah lian , minah , likdat lah .. all looking for trouble one >< !

Treat everyone with politeness , even those who are rude to you . Not because they are nice , but because you are .

To live a creative life , we must lose the fear of being wrong - Joseph Chilton Pearce ♥ .

Sometimes it takes a good fall to let you know where you stand .

In another life , I would be your girl ♥ .

Karma does exist, my dear.

What goes around, comes around.

Never get too attached to something . Cause when its time to let go , you will feel like dying so badly .

Sometimes the person who always keeps everyone happie is the most lonely person . She tries hard to keep everyone happie , hoping for the slightest attention she could get . She didn't need much . Just someone to tell her that her existents is needed .

Seeing someone you love so deeply leave you is like taking a knife and stabbing yourself over and over again while trying to fake a smile so real , no one would be able to tell that your suffering like hell .

I don't care if you're a straight , bi , les , gay , trans , alien , whatever . If you don't give me the rights of a human to be respected , i don't find any reason to respect you either .

2010 , you have been a wonderful year , no doubt ♥ . 2011 , thanks for being a year that wasn't as dramatic as the others ♥ . 2012 , please . This time round , i won't ask for much . Just someone who understands me well & would be there for me with out fail when I need him ♥ .

The fact that I once love you disgusts me . To think back , falling in love with you was a huge mistake i did & slowly , I am realising that whatever I did for you was stupid .

To your enemy, forgiveness.
To an opponent, tolerance.
To a friend, your heart.
To a customer, service.
To all, charity.
To every child, a good example.
To yourself, respect.

There are 3 types of people in the world:those who make things happen, those who watch things happen and those who wonder'what happend'?

" I Love You " , a phrase you MISUSED so many time , its hard to believe that you actually mean it .

For every BEAUTY there is an EYE somewhere to see it . For every TRUTH there is an EAR somewhere to HEAR it . For every LOVE there is a HEART somewhere to receive it .

“ Our deepest fear is not our weakness . Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure . It is our light , not our darkness , that frightens us most . We ask ourselves , " Who am I to be brilliant , gorgeous , talented , and famous ? " Actually , who are you not to be ? You are God's child . Your playing small does not serve the world . There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that people won't feel insecure around you . We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us . It's not just in some of us , it's in all of us . And when we let our own light shine , we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same . As we are liberated from our own fear , our presence automatically liberates others . ”
#BELIEVE , EMBRACE . ♥

“ You can bend it and twist it .. You can misuse and abuse it .. But even God cannot change the Truth . ”

If God places the heaviest burden on you , don't blame him . Cause he believe that you could carry its weight .

Makin' my way downtown,Walkin' fast,Faces pass and I'm homebound.Starin' blankly ahead,Just makin' my way,Makin' a way through the crowd.And I need you,And I miss you, And now I wonder...If I could fall into the sky,Do you think time,would pass me by? 'Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles.If I could just see you... Tonight.It's always times like these When I think of you, And wonder if you ever think of me. 'Cause everything's so wrong.And I don't belong. Livin' in your precious memory.'Cause I need you,And I miss you,And now I wonder... If I could fall into the sky,Do you think time,would pass me by? 'Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles.If I could just see you... Tonight.I, I, don't wanna let you know,I, I, drown in your memory.I, I, don't wanna let this go. I, I, don't. Makin' my way downtown, Walkin' fast, Faces pass and I'm homebound. Starin' blankly ahead,Just makin' my way,Makin' a way through the crowd. And I still need you, And I still miss you, And now I wonder... If I could fall into the sky,Do you think time.Would pass.. us by? 'Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles If I could just see you... oh oh.If I could fall into the sky, Do you think time would pass me by? 'Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles.If I could just see you. If I could just hold you....Tonight.

On the first page of our story the future seemed so brighten this thing turned out so evil I don't know why I'm still surprised even angels have their wicked schemes and you take that to new extremes but you'll always be my hero even though you've lost your mind Just gonna stand there and watch me burn but that's all right because I like the way it hurts just gonna stand there and hear me cry but that's all right because I love the way you lie Now there's gravel in our voices glass is shattered from the fightin this tug of war, you'll always win even when I'm right' cause you feed me fables from your hand with violent words and empty threats and it's sick that all these battles are what keeps me satisfied So maybe I'm a masochist I try to run but I don't wanna ever leave til the walls are goin' up in smoke with all our memories This morning, you wake, a sun ray hits your face smeared makeup as we lay in the wake of destruction hush baby, speak softly, tell me I'll be sorry that you pushed me into the coffee table last night so I can push you off me try and touch me so I can scream at you not to touch me run out the room and I'll follow you like a lost puppy baby, without you, I'm nothing, I'm so lost, hug me then tell me how ugly I am, but that you'll always love me then after that, shove me, in the aftermath of the destructive path that we're on, two psychopaths but we know that no matter how many knives we put in each other's backs that we'll have each other's backs, 'cause we're that lucky together, we move mountains, let's not make mountains out of molehills,you hit me twice, yeah, but who's countin'?I may have hit you three times, I'm startin' to lose count but together, we'll live forever, we found the youth fountain our love is crazy, we're nuts, but I refused counselin' this house is too huge, if you move out I'll burn all two thousand square feet of it to the ground, ain't shit you can do about it with you I'm in my f-ckin' mind, without you, I'm out it

The situations turns around enough to figure out.That someone else has let you down.So many times I don't know why.But I know we can make it as long as you say it.So tell me that you love me yeah.And tell me that I take your breath away.And maybe if you take one more than I would know for sure.There's nothing left to say.Tell me that you love me anyway.Waking up beside yourself and what you feel inside.Is being shared with someone else.Nowhere to hide I don't know why.But I know we can make it.As long as you say it.So tell me that you love me yeah.And tell me that I take your breath away.And maybe if you take one more than I would know for sure.There's nothing left to say.Tell me that you love me anyway.Show me look what we found turn it around every day.I can hear what you say.Now I know why know we can make it.If tell me that you love me yeah.And tell me that I take your breath away.And maybe if you take one more.So tell me that you love me,yeah.And tell me that I take your breath away.Maybe if you take one more than I would know for sure.There's nothing left to say.Tell me that you love me anyway.

Remember those walls I built.Well Baby they are turning down.And they didn't even put up a fight.They didn't even make a sound.I found a way to let you in.But I never really had a doubt.Standing in the light of your halo.I got my angel now.It's like I've been awaken.Every rule I had to break.It's the risk that I'm taking.I ain't never gonna shut you out.Everywhere I'm looking now.I'm surrounded by your embrace.Baby I can see your halo.You know you're my saving grace.You're everything I need and more.It's written all over your face.Baby I can feel your halo.Pray won't fade away.I can do your halo.I can see your halo.I can be your halo.I can see your halo.Hit me like a ray of sun.Burning through my darkness night.You're the only one that I want.You got addicted to your lie.I swore I'd never fall again.But this don't even feel like falling.Gravity came again.To pull me back to the ground again.It's like I've been awaken.Every rule I had to break.It's the risk that I'm taking.I'm never gonna shut you out.Everywhere I'm looking now.I'm surrounded by your embrace.Baby I can see your halo.You know you're my saving grace.You're everything I need and more.It's written all over your face.Baby I can feel your halo.Pray won't fade away.I can do your halo.I can see your halo.I can be your halo.I can see your halo.

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing,Just prayed to a god that I don't believe in,'Coz I got time while she got freedom,'Coz when a heart breaks no it don't break even.Her best days will be some of my worst,She finally met a man that's gonna put her first,While I'm wide awake, she's no trouble sleeping,'Coz when a heart breaks no it don't break even, even no.What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you.hat am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok.i'm falling to pieces.'m falling to pieces.they say bad things happen for a reasonBut no wise words gonna stop the bleeding'Coz she's moved on while I'm still grievingAnd when a heart breaks no it don't break even, even no.What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always youWhat am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're okI'm falling to pieces, yeahI'm falling to pieces, yeahI'm falling to pieces (One still in love while the other one's leaving)I'm falling to pieces, (Cuz when a heart breaks no it don't break even)You got his heart and my heart and none of the pain,You took your suitcase, I took the blame.Now I'm tryna make sense of what little remains, oh.'Coz you left me with no love, with no love to my name.I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing,Just prayed to a god that I don't believe in,'Coz I got time while she got freedom,'Coz when a heart breaks no it don't break, no it don't break, no it don't break even no.What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you . What am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're okI'm falling to pieces, yeahI'm falling to pieces, yeah . I'm falling to pieces, (One still in love while the other one's leaving)I'm falling to pieces, (Cuz when a heart breaks no it don't break even)Oh, it don't break even, noOh, it don't break even, noOh, It don't break even, no

I need another story.Something to get off my chest.My life gets kinda boring.Need something that I can confess.Till' all my sleeves are stained red.From all the truth that I've said.Come by it honestly I swear.Thought you saw wink, no.I've been on the brink, so,Tell me what you want to hear.Something that were like those ears.Sick of all the insincere.So I'm gonna give all my secrets away.This time, don't need another perfect line.Don't care if critics never jump in line.I'm gonna give all my secrets away.My god, amazing how we got this far.It's like we're chasing all those stars.Who's driving shiny big black cars.And everyday I see the news.All the problems that we could solve.And when a situation rises.Just write it into an album.Singing straight, too cold.I don't really like my flow, no, so.Tell me what you want to hear.Something that were like those ears.Sick of all the insincere.So I'm gonna give all my secrets away.This time, don't need another perfect line.Don't care if critics never jump in line.I'm gonna give all my secrets away.Oh, got no reason, got not shame.Got no family I can blame.Just don't let me disappear.I'mma tell you everything.So tell me what you want to hear.Something that were like those ears.Sick of all the insincere.So I'm gonna give all my secrets away.This time, don't need another perfect line.Don't care if critics never jump in line.I'm gonna give all my secrets away.So tell me what you want to hear.Something that were like those ears.Sick of all the insincere.So I'm gonna give all my secrets away.This time, don't need another perfect line.Don't care if critics never jump in line.I'm gonna give all my secrets away.All my secrets away, All my secrets away

yup...without me trying,we don't even look at each other...so it was a one-sided love all along?

so what?you don't mean anything to me anymore...i mean it!i am determine to let go of you...My silly hopes and dreams are finally all gone...because of you...so thank you for making me realise that there was actually no reason for me to like you for the past two years....

How many times do we say something that we immediately realized was not the right thing to say?How many times do we look back an event and think...if only I had....How many times do we do something that we wish we hadn't done?

Love is like a butterfly. The more you chase it,the more it eludes you.But if you just let it fly,it will come to you when you least expect it.Love can make u happy but it often hurts,but Love's only special when you give it to someone who really is worth it.So take your time and choose the best......

Every girl is gorgeous, the only ugliness a girl can have is from the inside.

Dont treat others like a spare tire. When u dont need them, u dump them like a junk & dont even care. When u need help & lonely then u ask for help & ask for company. They will never like it. Karma exist, dont take it like a small matter. (;

Because I dont give empty promises. LOL

I forget most of the things because

he takes up most of the space in my memory♥

We come to love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly.he is imperfect, but he is irreplaceable.

Do not assume that he who seeks to comfort you now,lives untroubled among the simple and quiet words that sometimes do you good.His life may also have sadness and difficulty that remains far beyond yours.Were it otherwise,he would never have been able to find these words.

Quote for the moment~I know that we're just friends,i know that i am not your special someone.But if you ever need me I'll be there for you...But you'll have to promise me that you would never leave me♥

Sometimes i feel that i am talking to myself,

sometimes i feel that someone is missing me,

sometimes i feel that someone is watching over me,

sometimes i feel that there is really someone out there for me..Sometimes...

Quote for the moment ~ its too much for me to forget u instantly.give me some time for me to forget you, to take you as a complete stranger,but i hope that will never in my life happen ♥

Great...just when my new year failed to be what i wanted, just when i need to talk to someone, everybody kinda just disappeared right after midnight 12am

Quote for the moment ~ 2011 arrived and everything was gone

If a girl ever says "I'm Fine".. hold her and say "You're not.. I love you enough to know you're not fine."

..Don't stand there and watch her kill herself with tears...

If a girl admits that she likes you,note that it took her every ounce of her courage she has...Idiot don't take her for granted!

Happy Birthday!

This post is dedicated to one of my bitch whose birthday was yesterday

Happy Birthday Yanza Istina!

Quote for the moment ~ Birthday comes once in every 365 days, so cherish that one day and spent it with your loved ones ♥

It is true love when you care about another person's happiness more than your own...
Quote for the moment~Even if happiness forgets you a little bit, never completely forget about it
Jacques Prévert ♥

A true friend will tell you this:if you're alone,i'll be your shadow.If you wanna cry,i'll be your shoulder.If you want a hug,I'll be your pillow.If you need to be happy,i'll be your smile.But anytime you need a friend,i'll just be me.

Quote for the moment ~ You only have 365 days in a year,so chesrish those that care about you.

It's better to be hated for what you are and not loved for what you are not

Quote for the moment ~ Luck does not favor hesitation.
Roman words of wisdom ♥

Pain doesn't hurt when its all you've ever felt because not all scar show.Not all wounds heal...Sometimes u simply just can't see the pain in someone...
Quote for the moment ~ No problem can withstand the assault of sustained thinking
Voltaire ♥

Even when my heart stopped beating,when my everything ended,when my everything was fading into the shadows....moments of me and you were flashing trough my mind....

Quote for the moment ~ Life without love is like a tree without blossom and fruit ♥

You're sick of feeling down.You're not the only one,I'll take u by hand and u will understand this life is filled with hurt when happiness fails.Trust me and take my hand.When the light goes out,u will understand
Quote for the moment ~ Happiness do exist ♥

♥Remember the time when u asked me,why am i so depressed?why do i avoid u?

Its because of all the pain u put me though.Its because u stole my heart and threw it away,without it i can never love again...because judging me behind my back was all u ever did...so just let me cry and u will never have 2 worry about me...♥

♥Quote for the moment ~ If you love somebody, let them go. If they return, they were always yours. If they don't, they never were ♥

Life is short ...They say it takes a minute to find a special someone,an hour to appreciate them,a day to ♥ them,but then an entire life to forget them...Quote for the moment ~ Even if happiness forgets you a little bit, never completely forget about it Jacques Prévert ♥

A beautiful face may not always come with a beautiful heart.