Nothing.

I dislike the word "forever". It's like a white lie you say every time to make someone happy for (in my case) a day the most cause, you see, 

NOTHING lasts forever. NOTHING. 

If someone tells me; for example;"I love you forever."/"I'll be with you forever."/"We will last forever." that's all just bullshit. Seriously. Maybe it's time to wake up? Hello?? Life is not a fairy tale there may be a moment where you feel like it is, but it's not. This is what life makes us think. They give you a whole lot of hope & letting you believe for till reality hits your mind that "forever" actually exist. 

I am not trying to be a wet towel here but just stop for a moment & seriously think through this shit.. You seriously think something will lasts forever? Please, it won't. Nothing will. Please stop torturing yourself by believing in it, by giving yourself a whole lot of false hope. Just stop.

Yet again.

Here I am, again. It is beginning to feel all too familiar. The dampness and its colour. Just when I thought I had someone, he left once again. What is left of me? It is like parts of me are dying, bit by bit. It is all too excruciating. Why can't I be better? Why am I never adequate? Why am I me?

I wanna say I love you, but babe, I'm terrified.