I am not..

I am not gonna think I was never good enough cause I know I gave my best.
I am not gonna to hate you cause it's irritating. To hate somebody, you have to observe everything the other party does so when he/she does something wrong, that's when you go in & pick on he/she, rub it in their face.
I am not gonna find someone else just to get you off my mind cause that's just cruel & I'd be lying to myself & that might also mean I am trying to get your attention, which.... it's probably something I don't wanna do.
I am not gonna avoid you cause duhhhhhhh it's your lost. HEHEHE.
I am not gonna be all sad cause I can't. I am actually fucking happy at how everything is right now. But maybe except the fact that sometimes I'd get a little lonely but problem is I don't really feel like talking to people anymore. Shit, am I showing signs of being an anti-social? 
I am not gonna regret anything cause the memories you gave... It was nice. 
I am not gonna miss you. I would only miss the memories we had.
I am not gonna ignore you if you try to talk to me someday. Cause I need you to realize how well I am actually doing WITHOUT you. 

I am not gonna cry myself to sleep at night because of you.